The Things No One Tells You About

My day?

I’m not going to tell you about how my daughter nagged me to blow bubbles incessantly while I feebly attempted to made dinner. I won’t tell you that it took repeating myself several times before my son decided to listen on more than one occasion today. I won’t tell you that I woke up in a foul mood for absolutely no reason and that all day the only thing that I wanted was for someone to take these kids, clean this house, feed me chocolate and leave me alone.

I’m just not even gonna bring any of those things up. Because why? Why do that to you all?

Today was a day spent mucking through the minutes and the hours. And during that time, something occurred to me: nobody tells you about the in-between in life.. You look forward to all of those big moments in life and how huge they will feel to you. But the truth is that those milestones only make up a handful of days in what are otherwise years and years of life. They’re blink and you miss em moments; high school graduation, college graduation, getting married, having children. Poof, then they’re gone.

And then there are the days in between those days.

Days that make up time, filled with triviality, love, discouragement, anger, indifference, busyness, joy, contentment and fulfillment. The in-between. In between those fleeting momentous occasions? Life. Life is the in-between. No one really elaborates on days like today. They don’t really tell you what it feels like to have to wait for those big moments. They don’t really tell you what it’s like to wait for the darker seasons in life to pass. They don’t really tell you how repetitive life is going to seem sometimes and how you’ll want to pull your hair out.

People aren’t kidding when they tell you that life can be cruel.

It’s filled with moments that you wish you could forget. Painful goodbyes to people who you love. Flat tires and speeding tickets. Forgetting that important thingie at home or losing your keys and not even making it out the door when you need to. Or the strap on your son’s sandal, being a pain and not strapping. Just because. Lost relatives, friendships that dissolve as life gets tricky. Learning that the person that you have a crush on doesn’t love you back. Acrimonious words hanging in the air between husband and wife – words regretted or stinging.

Painful, yea.

But for as unrelenting and difficult as life can be, and for how fuzzy people are on the details when they say that “life is hard” they also forget to elaborate on something else.

How good it can be.

The way my daughter’s perfect ringlets of hair blows in the breeze or when my children are actually playing peacefully and happily together. Finding a piece of chocolate in the cubbard on a bad day. The husband, getting home earlier than expected from work – walking up the drive way with flowers in his hand. Your child learning how to say ‘I love you’ or ‘amen.’ Warm conversations with your best friend over a fresh cup of coffee. Finding a pair of jeans that fit just right. A warm autumn day, coffee in your hand and a smile on your face. Saying goodbye to the husband in the quiet hours of the morning and watching him climb into his truck and realizing that one day, things may not be as simple as this.

I could go on and on.

Life can be so, so good. The in-between that I’m lucky enough to have? So good. And I forget how good it is, good enough that it even warrants the need to be written about so that I can smile as I read those words again and realize just how gracious God is to me. How much he gives us – even if our years are relatively short. And when people unabashedly or in a matter-of-fact tone write off your discouragement and tell you that life is unfair, ask them to make a mental note of all that they have and have been able to enjoy. Life isn’t always peachy, no. But when the clouds cover the sun, all is not lost. There is still so, so much to look forward to. And if we don’t take note of that fact, we will miss out on so, so much.

I hope that you had a wonderful week and thus far, a great weekend. I hope that you all enjoy lots of great in-between time this week. 🙂

5 Things Friday: The 5 Most Awesome Things About This Week

Let’s begin on this lovely note: the time change this past Sunday stunk. Like, for reals.

It jacked up part of me and my children’s week. This week has drug on for forever, and as the days have worn on, my babies have become more and more sleep deprived. I am not kidding at all when I say that their sleep schedules have been a hot mess since Sunday. I thought that this time around, the time change, for some reason, wouldn’t be that big of a deal. “It’s just an hour ahead,” I thought. I figured that once we got past what would be a rocky Monday it only would only mean that my children would wake up an hour later, even though it’s just due to the clock jumping ahead and not actually due to an extra hour of sleep. Yea, right. Kids, it turns out, will still find 7 a.m., somehow, even in the midst of a time change. And they will be grumpy about it. Especially since 7 a.m. after moving the clock an hour ahead isn’t REALLY 7 a.m.

The one good thing about Daylight Savings: longer days! I don’t know how most of you feel about it, but I sure as heck am glad that the sun isn’t going to go away by 5 p.m. anymore. With longer days, it now truly feels like summer is around the corner…even though we still have the heat on and the days seem to be still stuck in “grey, dreary and wet” mode. I’m just going to pretend that any day now the weather is going to turn to being mild and it won’t look back. And neither shall I.

 

The 5 Most Awesome Things About This Week (even in the midst of Daylight Savings Time):

1. My son figured out how to move his eyebrows today. Not kidding, this is the greatest thing ever. Granted, he could only go up and down a few times before he ended up having to contort his whole face instead of actually moving just his eyebrows up and down. But suffice it to say, we had a great laugh in the car when we both realized what he was doing. Super, duper cute.

2. Wonderful sister in-laws. You know, the kind that will babysit your two crazy kids for nearly 8 hours so that you and the husband can go and have a day at the mall to yourselves? Yes, that kind. I already loved my sister-in-law and didn’t think it was possible to love her anymore. Rob and I had a wonderful time, Jess. Thank you SO much, we needed that time together. And kudos to Jessica’s husband, Jason, for loaning her out for the day. We missed you, but we will catch you next time! And by then, hopefully, Jerry will have even further perfected his eyebrow moving skills. If there is such a thing. We may just have to ask Napoleon Dynamite.

3. This…

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Clearly, he was on a roll this week.

4. Clara is talking more! I love listening to her talk. I love listening to her excited babbling when she sees something new. I love that she can say “love you” and that she is starting to form sentences already! But, what I think that I love the most is her simple reaction when she sees something that leaves her in awe, “…whoa.”

5. Friends. This next part is a bit cryptic, but that’s OK. Friends. Lately, Rob and I have had the opportunity to reconnect with a few old friends and to make some new ones. It has left us feeling somewhat inspired to get out there and be more social, especially with the summer months coming. But, I am so, so fortunate to have all of the friends that I have. And, no matter if they are near, or far or if we see and talk to one another regularly or often, it is an understatement when I say that each one of them has touched my life, brightened it and filled it with joy. Joy that can only be attributed to them. New or old, a friend is a friend. I am very thankful for my posse. Word.

I hope that where ever you are, that you get lots of warm weather and sunshine. I think that it is supposed to rain here this weekend. I’d show you my surprised face, except for the fact that this doesn’t surprise me in the slightest. But, at least I will be all the more prepped for being ready and willing to get outside when the sun finally does decide to show itself. I’m waiting…

Happy Friday, folks!!!

Not Today

I worry if I am sometimes too negative on my blog.

I have been given so much in my short life. I am a very, very fortunate lady. Though I try to take time out to reflect and to live consciously of just how much I have…I fall short. Don’t we all? I try to live a life that isn’t ignorant of or dismissive of all that I have. But it is never enough. I don’t say that dejectedly, I say that honestly.

It will truly never, ever be enough recognition because I have way too much to be thankful for. I don’t live in a picture perfect world, I don’t see life through rose-colored glasses. Sometimes, things just stink. I believe in being honest about the fact that life sometimes sucks. I think that, in these times especially, things have become superfluous and artificial. What matters the most, or should matter the most, has lost its priority in our lives. And what we should be weary of, they seem to have lost their sting, and we have become desensitized. We become complacent in guarding and protecting what we should and then it becomes too late. What matters most can slip away so quickly.

Too many euphemisms, too much obscurity. We don’t know the difference from up or down, or right from left. And then people are crushed when things go awry, because we have been told that if we shoot for the moon, we will land amongst the stars, or something like that. We are taught that with enough self-confidence, we can accomplish and fix anything.But that isn’t true, because this world IS broken.

But, I have hope. I have hope in restoration, and in renewal.

I have hope in eternity.

I have hope in Jesus.

And because I am holding this hope and knowledge, this is why I should live gratefully. I should be living a life filled with joy, love and honor. This is why I, we, should be overjoyed and blissfully happy people. Not because all is hunky dory and easy-going, but because even when things are not, it’s OK, because this isn’t a new concept to us. We knew that it was all hogwash from the beginning. We have hope that things get better, that there has to be something better. We know that there is.

There will always be some problem or issue to pick out in our lives. Some reason to give in to the chaos, the depression, the disorganization, the clutter, the noise…Not today. Today, I will not yield to it. Because I have hope. I have love. Troubles are there, but they are not all that is there or that this fleeting life is composed of. They amount to nothing in the end. Amidst grief, amidst doubt, amidst uncertainty and fear – I have hope. And I have love. And today, that is what rocks my world. Today, that is what I see. From this past week, that is what I see. That is what I acknowledge.

This was my week…

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It was a good week.

Happy weekend, everyone.