I have writer’s block tonight. I feel like my heart and head are stirring but the two just can’t converge. It could be information overload or because my husband and two children are literally in the room right next to me bouncing on the bed, squealing, tickling, giggling and cooing, respectively. And now, from my computer to your’s, written with a 4 month old on my lap, I present to you:
A Dozen Things You Didn’t Know About Me:
1.Some of you may or may not know but…I’m afraid of the dark. Sometimes it is debilitating. For example, if the power goes out and I’m in a room by myself I freeze. And typically cry out for Rob. And stand there and wait for him to come and get me, all while panting nervously and anxiously anticipating him coming to get me. I can’t hack it. I’m working on this.
2. I hate drinking water from a glass- unless I’m using a straw. I prefer it to come out of a bottle. And not a reusable aluminum bottle, I mean a bottle of water that you would get at the gas station. My house is littered with used water bottles that I keep refilling and recycling. I know…there are other alternatives that are cheaper than $1.59 a bottle, but what can you do. At least it is water and not soda…sometimes.
3. Let me see if I can find more interesting fare for you….I love animals. Sometimes when I’m watching television or movies, I feel worse when things happen to an animal than a person. Albeit, sometimes that “person” is usually a “bad guy.” I was rooting for “Free Willy” to make it over the wall, “Mighty Joe Young” to flee captivity and felt a small twinge of sorrow for the shark AFTER it was blown up in “Jaws.” But honestly, I love animals and have a knack with them at times. I’ve owned chickens, Canada Geese (shhh), a deer (shhhhhhh), horses, dogs and cats. I find myself lost in wonderment when I learn more and more about animals and their various complexities because it truly makes me turn my eyes to God to see how thoughtful and all knowing He is. It boggles my mind at His foresight when he made all of creation.
4. I would have failed the driving test for getting my driver’s license on the first try. The DMV employee testing me gave me back points on one of the things she marked me down on. I’m not sure why she took pity on me, but to her credit, I’ve never had a ticket or caused an accident. Just one little ole warning in almost 10 years of driving.
5. Jerry and Clara both have “theme songs” that I’ve made up for them. Some of their songs have no words to them and are only composed of sounds. No, I won’t sing them for you or to you because you aren’t Jerry or Clara.
6. Two of the bravest people I personally know are Amanda’s. One has lost her father to sickness, the other one has given birth to a child with special needs and health issues. Neither have flinched in the face of grief or despair, respectively. I wish I had their courage.
7. Sometimes I worry if people like me. And by “people” I mean my friends. I couldn’t stand to embarrass myself in front of people I know, but have no problem making a spectacle of myself around strangers. Somehow, I feel like my friends are going to figure out I’m a weirdo and change their minds about me. I’m not saying this to fish for compliments – this is completely true. Please still like me…
8. To get my attention, a guy once stood outside of my car… in his underwear…in the middle of the night during December. I was mad at him and wouldn’t speak to him. It didn’t work, in case you were wondering.
9. I love eating out and my favorite meal is lunch. I would eat a relatively small breakfast and dinner if I could indulge in a big lunch from somewhere of my choosing, everyday.
10. No matter what station of life I’m in, I always feel like the person on the outside looking in.
11. I freaking adore Kate Middleton. Something about an understated, classic and laid back girl who enjoys the fashionably simple stuff is fabulous and refreshing. Kate, the great! I say.
12. It is the last one…I have to make it count. I’m still extremely intimidated the label of homemaker/stay at home mom. I hardly consider myself to be proficient at this in the slightest. Sometimes, I let doubt swim in my head and wonder how good I am at any of this. I try to combat this by meditating on this , that “I can do all things through Him who gives me strength.” I just tack on wisdom, energy, knowledge, patience, love, kindness, endurance, proficiency and steadfastness on to the end of that verse. He supplies me with, infuses me with and enables me with all that I need.
There you have it. The oldest is in bed, the husband is relaxing with a beer on the porch (how very Cordova) and the 4 month old is now laying on the bed in the other room, clamoring for my attention. I can’t complain, I’ve had the time to write this tonight. It isn’t what I thought I would end up writing, but there you go. Voila.